I am currently "studying" for my driving test. I havent had any lessons yet or ever driven a car in my life. At the moment all im doing is trying half heartedly to work my way through the 500 page theory bible. I have never been good at revising. Never. I just dont do it. Thats not to say i dont need to. Im sure i would benifit from it, im just literally not capiable. I pick up no infomation. Its getting a bit like that with the driving theory book. I am trying...i really am! i want to drive. it will make my life a lot easier, although make my wallet a lot lighter. Back in the days of GCSE i remember doing almost 0% revision in the whole 2 years. I still did reasonably well though, even in maths which i consider one of the things i am destined to fail at forever. I have come to terms with the fact i will never be a rocket surgeon. My point is though that no matter how much or how little revision i do i seem to scrape by...just. However i really dont see this happening with driving. I have never had to remember 500 pages with about 3 questions on each before. i know maths well enough to estimate that thats about 1500 questions.

By this lack of revision skill its no wonder i went on to do a BTECH in music at college as it requires no revision as there are no tests. Its made up of coursework (which is boring but easy) Its only now though after leaving college, turning 18 and metaphorically being thrust out into the adult world that i realise what life is. Life is just a series of GCSE exam after GCSE exam. Driving a car is as gruelling as a GCSE. getting a job is like a GCSE exam. First you have to pass your exam in CV writing, then you have to pass your GCSE exam in passing an interview (provided you can even manage to get one) then if you get the Job the remainder of your life in that job consists of working your way up the ranks and making more money. Relationships are very much viewed the same in society. Although i personally don't agree with this, marriage is considered the A* in a relationship. I personally believe you can last without marriage but what does a silly non Christian know about anything aye?

Its things like this that genuinally make me dread the "grown up life" I dont want to sound like Michael Jackson or anything but i really am not in the mood for growing up just yet. I wasnt estatic about turning 18 anyway. The thought of what i have to go through in the future when buying a house actually terrifies me more than any terrorist attack or encounter with the un-dead. I would even go so far as to say i would rather be eaten by a great white shark...and great white sharks are my biggest phobia. Thats not to suggest i like being a child or even a teenager. I would say that i could quite happily live my life at 20 forever. Yeah i think i will do that. I will remain 20 years old forever...

...What could go wrong?