As you may or may not be able to tell by now i am an agnostic. A very light agnostic at that. Like most agnostics i dont so much believe in the possibility of an afterlife as i do hope for one. or indeed fear there is one. I have never been big on the whole religious thing. Even as early as primary school i have brief memories of rebelling against Christianity. There are certain things my Primary school made us do that nowadays when i look back on it i often think to myself "if i was there now i would have a lot to say to those teachers!" but of course im not. And back then i was innocent and oblivious to the things i was being fed. Basically the one thing i never understood about my Primary School was that it was a Public School in the middle of South East London, one of the most multi cultural places in the whole of England, Our school had Christian Kids, Seek kids, Hindu kids and all sorts...Yet the base of everything was Christianity being thrown in your face left right and centre. Most assembalys there would be a variety of Christian songs to sing ( one was called JC 2000. in case you didnt get it the JC stands for Jesus Christ) there would often be a prayer at the end of assembly which i presume was directed towards the Christian God. I cant exactly hold Christmas against them though. Its Christmas for Christ's sake! no pun intended. I could just never grasp why at a public school in Lewisham this was allowed...which leads me to my next point...
...Now before i get going i have to state, i have nothing against people believing what they want to believe. Everyone is entitled to their beliefs BUT heres where it gets tricky. I was always taught to respect other peoples religions. And i have to say in all honesty, being 100% honest...i dont. I dont respect most religions and i will tell you why. Personally i dont feel that respect should be dealt out casually to anyone who wants it. Like i said i respect your right to have a religion but i will not respect your actual religion if i dont like it. The way i decide how much respect i have for someone is purely through a basis of how i feel about that individual person's personality. Lets face it most people dont respect Scientologists. Even oh so perfect Christians look at Scientology and laugh. Why? Well because its fucking stupid. Its a rediculous religion. But what i dont think most christians get is that i look at Christianity the exact same way i look at scientology. To me Christianity is no less of a cult, its just been around longer.
Thats not to say i dont think Christianity has some good ideas, because i genuinally do like some of the stuff the bible talks about. I like their messages that encourage you to help your fellow man and be charitable. What i dont like however is all the undecisivness of it. The bible is pretty much an oxymoron in itself. I really dont understand how a religion can claim something like "homosexuality is a sin" just through one or two extremely vague and cryptic verses YET allow such clear passages like "Dissobedient children should be stoned to death" to be completely ignored. I know there is this whole thing about "well thats the old testament, this is the new testament!" Woo the new testament! get you! You Christians seem to have this argument that you follow the new testament but can i just ask WHY would you believe that if the old testament is good enough for Jesus its somehow not good enough for you? Last time i checked Jesus was Jewish right? Well when you guys rant about how "the jews killed Christ" are you actually insinuating that Jesus...Killed himself? If so isnt suicide a sin? If so does that mean Jesus is in Hell? wow this is getting deep. Lets get deeper, If Christ is God...does that mean Jesus was his own father? that has to be incest on a biblical scale (excuse the pun)
Ok i went off on one there. I actually just remembered why i started this post. Basically yesterday i got a knock on my door from no less that a Jehovahs whitness. I wont pretend to know a lot about their adaptation of Christianity but what i do know is they dont like medicine and are whitnesses to ... erm Jehovah (whoever that is) Anyway my good old Dad greeted them at the door and being the polite fellow he is he informed them that his wife (and my mother) has a incurable disease that is ... well i wont go into that if you dont mind but you get the jist that my dad was implying that "where is god now!?" which i do whole heartedy agree with. Well this Whitness didnt hesitate to pull out a small booklet that actually gave that very answer! Low and behold there was a whole chapter in this free book called "why do our loved ones get ill and die" and it covered all the basic reasons. apparently...God does it on purpose to test our faith. NICE ONE GOD! thanks a fucking bunch. I mean really...what a cunt. But i wont continue with name calling.
Heres my basic Peeve. I will give you respect if you grant me with a little. I dont want to believe what you believe. dont try and convert me becasue i guarentee it is IMPOSSIBLE. my faith is completely destroyed beyond repair...unless say God personally visits me and tells me. And for the record i dont appreciate being told i am going to hell. I find it VERY hard to believe that if i live as good a life as i can humanly manage and not be a Christian i will fail to reach "heaven" because honestly...what kind of a God allows a person who has lived a good, caring life not get into his nightclub in the sky because they didnt "believe" but allows a serial killer who "repented and converted" just in time for death row to get in. If there is a heaven and it is a Christian heaven personally i dont want to get in. Especially if the cast and crew of GOD TV are going to be there.
So just remember Christians (and other religions) have some respect for the agnostic or the athiest because we are people too. I know you like to have this blind superiority complex that you are the saved ones and we are all un saved heathens but just remember...some of us are your doctors and lawyers and judges...so give respect and you might get it back.
